I know you want this. You say you don’t because you have convinced yourself that it makes you deviant or slutty or something.
You are a “relationship girl.” You like to “get to know a guy first.” Who said that those are mutually exclusive ideas to begin with?
Why can’t you be a “relationship girl?” and enjoy the idea of cumming with two dicks inside you?
Every once in awhile I will listen to a pornstar interviewed. I find it interesting to hear their actual, non-“oh cum on my tits” opinions.
And one opinion I recall sticks out. That is: double penetration orgasms are a whole new extremely intense mind fuck for her.
That’s the reason to buy a jelly, in my opinion. So that feeling can be simulated in a woman while my dick is inside her. But let’s be honest, simulation is not the real thing, no matter what you want it be.
So run with it, is my take. Stuff your man in your ass and a total stranger you will never see again in your pussy and then tell me what you really feel.