I must say, as a submissive I find your writings intoxicating. As a bitter 40 year old who no longer believes in the "romantic love" "D/s fantasy" you describe, I am angered that you have what I have not been able to find, and my tattered emo heart weeps. But because I'm also a lonely masochist, it comes full circle every time and I cant help but love the shit you write. It makes me cry more than it makes me wet. But hey, tears are wet right? You're a lucky bastard and a great writer. Kiss kiss
Thank you for saying you enjoy the writings and I wish you the best finding happiness elsewhere.
Hopefully reading things here, at a minimum, helps you redefine what you want and will accept once that time comes for a new man to enter your world.
Just get out there. The more people you date more likely it is to meet somebody that ‘doesn’t suck’.