I gotta admit, this is kind of a pet peeve of mine. I hate feeling icky after just giving a woman my best, most intimate version of myself, and yes, I have had that “I’ll swallow it because I know I am supposed to” but it is rare to look down and see somebody really loving it.
First off. Billions of shit lives everywhere. I will leave out the examples of this because it will give you the willies, but trust me, cum is just one more thing that has little teeny tiny shit crawling and swimming around. That shouldn’t give you the heebs because it happens to exist all around you in other ways.
I read a few articles to answer your ask better to help you get out of your own head and I feel this one is the best I found. Ladies, please chime in.
Also – don’t beat yourself up. Not swallowing is not the end of the world. Though I prefer getting a load swallowed with a smile, it’s not even close to a deal breaker.