Hi @brsr22 and thanks for the ask.
Since there are a few questions here, I’ll answer them separately because I think it will be an easier read:
- When did you start writing?
- I started captioning on Tumblr in the late fall of 2016, so about 2 years ago. It was short captions that were just a few sentences at a time and were usually not too descriptive.
- By March 2017 (1 ½ years ago), I started in with longer posts similar to what are like the shorter ones now (i.e. 3-5 short paragraphs).
- Eventually, the longer ones you see today became the standard.
- Ironically, it is the short captions that gain the most traction and get reblogged the most.
- What inspired it?
- My ego. To be completely honest, it was a shallow emotion that triggered what ultimately would become an unselfish endeavor. In the beginning, I just enjoyed seeing the reaction from women. Pretty pathetic looking back, but hey, at least I am honest.
- Over time, the ego stuff really was put into perspective after I got pretty desensitized to all the “Hey TRD, come and fuck me” requests than now make me respond with the barely audible “meh”. But in the beginning, that was a hard thing to mentally manage.
- Were your first writings erotic or did you gravitate that way over time?
- I always placed high in writing and English comp in school, as well as usually did well in college anytime writing was involved. However, I did not write in a creative or expressive manner until here on Tumblr. I think this is part of the reason I am taking my time writing a book; because I would absolutely be horrified if it were an atrocious end product. So I want to make sure I figure out some things, in general, about creative writing, and I am guessing those things are unknown to me right now. I do write a lot at work, but that is not of a creative manner, however, it does help me stay fresh with things like sentence structure and technology.
- Does it feel like you are compelled to creatively release what is inside your mind?
- I really don’t know, but it is a good question. I guess the answer would be more like this: “I feel a need to release what is inside my mind and heart”, however, I don’t feel a need or really any particular reward for being creative, in and of itself. Think of it like this: for me, it is more akin to a person writing in a personal journal. It centers me to do it and it only feels right when it comes from the heart. I feel like a sell-out, to myself, when it is “for the audience”. I don’t want people to like it because it covers some D/s boilerplate crap that they like; I want them to like it because they hear the person’s heart bleeding out on the other end and it is real because of it.